No resolutions. No vision board. Nothing.
Just a few words to live by for the year.
And here goes…
Being loving and kind towards another when he or she is loving and kind towards you is easy and smooth. And not in anyway messy.
But I want to be mean, to blow up and just be downright honest in a mean and destructive way. But I can’t. Because I can remember clearly the times when I terribly wished that someone was kind to me when I was ugly and all I deserved was not.grace.
And then I also think about the ones that drew near when they should’ve stepped back like others did.
I think about the One that reached in, drew out and pulled near.
I can’t save another. Even when I sometimes foolishly believe that I can. But I can see another’s brokenness, and even though I’m tempted to look away and maybe take a step back, I can dig my feet deep in the dirt and stand in the gap.
All with the help of the One that can reach in, draw out and pull near.
This year, I can come out of my shell even when I just want to crawl up into a ball of self-pity and self-centeredness.
I can choose to text first, call them and check in first. Even when the why-can’t-she-text-or-check-up-on-me overwhelms my mind.
This year, I can let go of the idea of doing big things for God while believing that the mundane, day to day, ordinariness of it all matters too. Even the plunging of the bad smelling poop of – I believe, one grown man and a couple of kids – that refused to flush down the toilet on its own.
I can choose to see something beautiful in when she walks into the room late at night to discuss something, that she could’ve easily discussed with her friends, with me.
Choose to believe that the combing of hair, pulling of textured weaves, locking together of braids and faux locs matters too.
I can choose to do justice, walk humbly and love mercy. Even though I no longer believe that I truly know what that means.
I can let myself be embraced with grace. Extend grace to myself and freely give it to others. Starting with my family members.
I can let myself be deeply loved by the God who has saw it fit to give me my life. All because he knows best.
This year, I can accept the invitation to “Come, let us reason together”. More often. Freely. Without shame and without fear.
I can choose or choose not to believe that my God doles out gifts, blessings and goodness according to how big our faith is.
This year, I can choose to press on. To press on to know the Lord.
And when I fail in any or all of these things, I will choose to trust in the One that has already reached in, drew out and pulled near.
Happy New Year Folks!!!