Sometimes I get so insecure by trying to figure out what others think of me.
Other times, the battle is just with me trying to perform for God. Believing in the lie, once again, that His love for me is work-based.
“Oh I shouldn’t have said that. Maybe I should’ve done it this way”. Many times, I find myself feeding on the lies of the enemy. Find myself worrying about insignificant things that I feel I now know the meaning of being ‘worried sick’.
It’s a struggle and a weakness. A joy stealing weakness. Sometimes it takes a while to get a hold on my thoughts, to take these thoughts captive.
But when I finally do, I am reminded of some wonderful truths.
I am reminded, once again, that God is absolutely crazy about me.
This is where I start smiling and the darkness in my heart starts to give way. It doesn’t stop there.
I am reminded that I am His daughter and although filthy beyond recognition with all these flaws and weaknesses, God does not see that.
When He sees me, He does not see my filthiness but rather He sees Christ because Christ covers me. God does not look at me with disgust nor does He get irritated and frustrated the way I do when I think about my shortcomings.
And this has absolutely nothing to do with me but everything to do with Christ.
By this time, I’m already grinning and my heart is rejoicing.
Yes I may have to continually fight this battle. And sometimes, I’ll have to remind myself of these wonderful truths several times a day.
But the truth is that the battle has already been won. The victory is there and I just have to take hold of it to delight in it.
I am His daughter in whom He is well pleased, He takes great pleasure in me. God is well pleased with me. God feels good about me. He feels good about me!
Little, inadequate and unworthy me. God, my God!
“Long ago the lord said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.” -Jeremiah 3:31