How I strive and struggle for control over many things.
I mean God I would just like to take charge and work things the way I’m used to working them.
But we both know that those ways did not necessarily yield good nor favorable results. Rather they only brought on more frustration and unbearable pain.
You’ve reminded me to give it all to you and by your spirit my heart has continually sang the I surrender all song. I have chanted and repeated: For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain. I must decrease and He must increase. I must deny myself, pick up my cross daily and follow Him.
But here we are again Lord. Back at it again.
It’s all about me and what I think I can do. I want to be in control just because I would like to know how this whole thing will work itself out. Rather than walking by faith, I’m rooted on the path of fear.
In all honesty, I don’t trust you Lord. Not in this situation.
I know that you are good but once again, I find it difficult to believe that you are truly good.
Can we both just work together? I mean can I use my worldly wisdom while you intervene in a sovereign way and at the end of the day everything will work out for my good? And you know, you can receive glory in that too.
The truth is that I really do want to trust you in this situation but I honestly just don’t know how to. Every part of me is worrying and seriously on the brink of freaking out. Continue reading
“Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin.” (Zechariah 4:10)
How many of us young adult Christians feel like we are doing “little” things?
We question what our 9 to 5 job, small business or college education will do for God? We want more. We honestly feel like there is more out there for us to do, this cannot be all that there is to life.
And in our quest for more, we choose to abandon our current responsibilities. In our quest for the big things, we find ourselves despising the small beginnings in life.
Maybe we have a burden to make Christ’s name known, a burden to do more work for God. So we find ourselves bored with our work, gifts, talents and education.
Failing to realize how God can use the small things, we choose to despise them.
And although unfaithful with little, we expect God to bless us with more. Continue reading
Now faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses]. (Hebrews 11:1 AMP)
While I’m currently waiting on God to do something significant in my life, I’ve come to the realization that faith is not about mustering up enough faith to get God to do what we want.
Rather it is about trusting that God will work everything out for our good.
Faith is about trusting that God’s will is always good and better than what we may currently want.
It is being sure and holding on to the fact that God is still good no matter the outcome of our situation. Faith is believing that God is never against us no matter what we may or may not get from Him.
The moment we start believing that we can propel God to do something for us through our faith, we are in danger.
Danger of feeling like a failure for our inability to muster up enough faith. Continue reading