“No failure is fatal. No failure is fatal. No failure is fatal.”
This has been my mantra for the past week.
I got the devotional No Failure is Fatal by Max Lucado, in my inbox last week. The devotional came right before I failed woefully in something that I thought I had already gotten a hold on. My pride, my controlling tendencies and my manipulative heart. I had no idea how much of an encouragement this devotional would turn out to be for me.
I saw it coming. The rage of anger, the irritation, and the pride. The possibility that I would fail to honor God through my response to the situation but I subconsciously chose not to fight. I got too comfortable and I felt like it was already a lost cause. I believed the lie of the enemy that there was nothing to do and I allowed ungodly fear to overwhelm my mind. I was unable to believe that I have been redeemed and I have the power within me to not go back to my old ways.
So I acted out of fear. Fear of not knowing what the future holds. Fear of the past. There was no need nor desire to fight. Not through prayer or the word.
But God knew the future and He saw my failures even before they came to be.
So God was not caught unaware when I reacted in anger. He was not shocked that I gave in to my fear and pride. He saw it coming, and in mercy He had already went before me to provide sufficient grace in my failures and weaknesses.
“Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD” (Psalm 139:4).
He is not amazed at my failures and even before I failed, He has chosen to use the failure. To show His surpassing power in my weakness. To reveal to me my desperate and constant need for Him. To help me understand that He uses failures.
My failure and sin towards God and another person has shown me my hypocrisy when it comes to extending grace toward others.
I desire to be forgiven, for my failures and weaknesses to be easily overlooked and for the shame to be covered. Although I’ve occasionally failed to do this for others. If I’m sinned against, my natural tendency is to want others to know of what wrong was done to me.
Sadly, I have not been one to cover up another person’s shame or weaknesses. I have not loved others well in their sins, especially my brothers and sisters in Christ. But I desire to be loved and accepted with all my sins, mess, failures and weaknesses.
The standing truth is that I am loved well. Loved and fully accepted by God. And if I choose to believe and walk in this standing truth, I believe that I would be empowered to do the same for others.
God uses failures. The only reason I would wish to have never failed would be due to having to accept the responsibility and consequences of my actions.
Failure at times can be painful and shameful but it is not fatal.
And in the discipline from God that comes out of this failure, I feel and see the Lord’s mercy. I cannot fear or resist His loving discipline. It is good and perfect.
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.” -1 John 4:18